My Hometown, best Place

I just wanna share 'bout my best place at this world, that's my hometown. I realy happy when I remember that place. I spent my childhood there.

Exactly I and all of my family are from Bali Island, but 'couse of Agung Mountain was explode (1963), it's near from my family's house, it destroyed our place .

At that time, 'couse of JAva island was full of people, so the goverment took my family to Sumatra island, exactly in Lampung Province whice not so many people there. And another Balinese people were immigrated to another island, exept Java.

I was born in Lampung province, in Dharma Putra, East Lampung. and I spent my childhood there until I was 11 years old, this's the best place I think. in Lampung Province, there so many etnic, the one of them is Balinese.


although we din't live in bali, but we still spend our life acording our culture, Balinese culture. my village is Balinese village. it consist of Balinese people. so, it's just look like Bali Island, there're Pura, Balinese Dancing ( Kecak, Janger and etc...) and we still give a black-white catoon in something like tree, stone, etc...

So I just feel my life as same as in Bali. I realy don't know 'bout LAmpung cultures itself.

in my village, all of people are farmers, include my parents. there're so many garden like corn, cocoa, coconut, tomato, tea, and etc.. when I was child, I and my friend, after school went to the garden to hunting some birds, wild pig, and another animal tobe our lunch. it was very funtastic... and my hobby is hunting, so it will never been forgoten.I realy miss my hometown.

that's my best moment in this life!

shade'

I’m in My Family

Gw anak ke-6 dari 7 bersaudara. Cowok kedua dari dua cowok. Mengenai saudara gw yang lain bisa diliat di halaman depan blog di samping kanan. Gw gak begitu akrab sama keluarga. Mungkin gw anak yang punya sifat paling beda diantara yang lain. Terkadang gw sadari mungkin gw terlihat kurang perduli sama keluarga gw, tapi sebenernya mereka harta terbesar gw.

Gw gak biasa curhat atau cerita-cerita sama meraka. Kalo gak ada yang perlu diomongin, yaudah gak perlu banyak cakap, itu gw kalo di rumah. Bahkan gw jarang nelpon keluarga gw, rasanya kalo gak ada yang perlu diomongin, yaudah gak perlu nelpon, padahal gw tau mereka kangen sama gw. Paling nelpon kalo duit abis, mau pulang aja gw gak pernah ngasih tau, tiba-tiba udah nyampe rumah aja.

Jarak umur gw jauh banget sama ortu dan kakak gw yang cowok, sebenernya gw pengen banget punya sodara cowok yang bisa akrab sama gw. Cuman bokap sama kakak gw gak akrab sama gw. Padahal gw mengidamkan sosok mereka. Apalagi kakak gw, dia orangnya cuex, yaudah gw juga cuex.

Gw juga sebenernya pengen punya orang yang bener-bener bisa akrab sama gw, tapi yang usianya jauh diatas gw, yang udah punya pengalaman lebih mengenai masalah hidup, entah itu seorang bapak, paman, atau siapa aja, cuman masalahnya gak ada. Mungkin hal itu muncul karna gak ada orang yang deket sama gw yang bisa gw jadiin panutan, dan mungkin karna dari kecil (SMP) gw udah tinggal jauh dari keluarga dan belajar hidup sendiri, itu juga ngebuat sikap gw kurang begitu deket sama keluarga. Makanya itu gw sering nganggep Jackie Chan sebagai kakak gw, hehe… tapi ada juga sih yang lumayan akrab sama gw dan perhatian terhadap keberadaan gw.

Gw yang di rumah beda banget sama gw yang diluaran sana. Di luar gw merasa lebih hidup, gw bisa jalanin hidup gw apa adanya. Gak perlu banyak ekting dan gak perlu banyak kebohongan. Dalam arti inilah gw yang sebenarnya. Ya gimana dong, secara waktu gw lebih banyak habis di luaran dibanding sama di rumah (dari SMP sampe sekarang gw kuliah).

Bahkan kalo gw pulang, gw suka ngerasa sebagai orang asing di desa gw sendiri, dari mulai keluarga, saudara, bahkan temen-temen di masa kecil gw dulu, smua terasa beda dan aneh. Dan itu ngebuat gw ngerasa terasingkan. Makanya itu gw jadi males balik. Di rumah gw serba bingung mau ngapain, gak ada jadwal tetap yang mesti gw lakuin layaknya di kos. Begitu juga sama temen-temen, seakan mereka jadi lebih segan sama gw, gak seakrab dulu di waktu kecil. Itulah yang ngebuat gw sedikit lebih jaim ke mereka. Orang-orang di kampung juga terlalu nganggep gw cerdas, padahal gw ngerasa biasa aja.

This’s what I raely wanna be from my life

First I wanna tell some about my village and my family :

I’m from a small village, it’s a real village, there’s no supermarket, no taxi, no big building, no bar, and the street, it’s still a natural street, you cant go to my village by car if it’s raining. There are just cultures’s house, fields, birds and beautiful lifes of villagers.

I have great parents, one older brother, four older sisters and one younger sister. My parents realy love us more than everything, and they want all of us will be better than them, they just wish that their children can finish their study at least in University.

In my village all of us is a farmer, there’s no another people that their children go to city for their college except my parents. Sometimes my father have no enough money for it. Then he borrow to my uncle or someone and try to didn’t tell us about it, he just want his children seriously in studying without think ‘bout money, but I know that exactly they didn’t have enough money for my college.

But all of it’s nothing without ambisious from their childs. My brother is the oldest one. After graduate from his senior high school, my father was realy wish that he would continue to the University, and my father had paid for the cost to the college, but suddently brother said that he didn’t want to continue his study and he wanted to get marry. My father was realy disapointed to him and he couldn’t do anything for it.

My father knew that it would be realy hard to make his another child to be success if the oldest one was fail. And it realy happen, the second was prignant before get married. It was happen after she graduated from her senior high school. The 3th wanted to get marry when she in 2^nd semester of her college. The 4^th didn’t want to get her college just because she afraid if she will make our parents disappointed like what our brother and sisters done. And the 5^th is the one who realy make my parents and all of my family disappointed. She is a girl but she is like a men, never care ‘bout what my parents said, and the one who often fought with me when I was a child, hehe… after graduated from her senior high school, she was continue her study in religion. And she had a boyfriend whose the religion’s different from us, my parents didn’t like it and she knew it, but she still had a realation with him. Because in Indonesia we can’t get marry if the religion is different, one of couple must change in a same religion. Then suddently she want to marry him and want to be in one religion with the guy. Because my father has tired in her, so he let her get marry.

And now is my turn, I realy don’t wanna make my parents be disappointed. All of my family, my big family realy hope that I can give the best of me to them, and I hope I can do it. Now my parents have be old person, but all of their childs have give nothing to them. I realy want to change my family’s life, I don’t wanna see them feel difficult to get money. I wanna show to anybody that even though I’m from a village, I can be a success men in the city.

Some of people in my village include my Uncle and my Brother in law must leave their family and go to another place to get more field to be farm. Live alone in a place like a forest, there’s no people yet. And I don’t want it to be happen again.

What I realy wanna be, it’s realy hard to say in a word.

Exactly I realy wanna be an actor, I love filming. But my parents realy wanna see at least one of their childs can finish their study in a university and get a great job. So I try to forget it. Sometimes I fall in my dreams that I’m a big actor and I have so many fans… like my Bro Jackie Chan, hehe…

I wanna be a singer too, but I don’t have a beautiful voice, hehe…

I hope that I can give my best to my family and all people around me. I love them 4ever….

Kepribadian gw

Shade, mungkin gw orang yang sedikit aneh. Gw bingung mau nulis tentang diri gw sendiri. Mungkin hanya dengan tulisan masih kurang buat ngungkapin keaslian diri gw. Cuman gw seneng nulis tentang diri gw sendiri, rasanya seneng ngeliat coretan yang berkaitan sama diri sendiri, ya kan…

Gw orangnya cukup pendiem, tapi itu kalo gw belum kenal, tapi kalo udah kenal truss makin deket, pasti sifat keaslian gw bakalan muncul dengan sendirinya. Gw gak biasa cerita-cerita atau curhat sama orang lain mengenai diri gw. Gw lebih seneng ngabisin waktu luang gw sendirian terus ngerenungin apa aja yang udah gw lalaui, atau menghayal mengenai apa yang pengen gw dapetin di kehidupan gw kedepannya. Gw juga cukup keras kepala, gak mudah percaya sama orang lain tanpa bukti yang konkrit, hehe.

Gw gak begitu seneng keluyuran atau wara-wiri ke luaran sama temen lainnya, hanya sekedar nongkrong, ngerokok, atau minum-minum, rasanya itu cuman buang waktu doank. Tapi kalo gw lagi bête di kosan, gw sering ngajakin temen-temen buat nongkrong sekedar cerita-cerita masalah kuliah atau yang yang lainnya, tapi gak masalah pribadi, nongkrong disini gw anggep refresing, jadi kami nyari tempet yang asik, yang terasa damai aja….

Jujur gw orangnya gak begitu mau perduli sama orang lain, apa lagi kalo orang tersebut gak perduli sama gw duluan, hehe… gw gak begitu suka menolong orang yang gak tau diri. Pokoknya gw bodo amad sama orang yang gw anggep blagu, gak tau diri, gak tau malu (gak nyadar diri maksudnya), walau mungkin gw juga kayak gitu, tapi gw gak gitu kok, dan gw bukan pemalu lagi, karna dulu waktu masih kecilnya gw pemalu.

Yang bikin gw kuat dan bertahan adalah Mimpi gw. Gw punya banyak mimpi yang bener-bener indah. Gw gak akan nyerah buat dapetin mimpi gw.

Sebenernya ada satu masalah yang bener-bener bikin gw sakit dan nyiksa banget rasanya, dan itu gak bisa gw certain ke siapapun termasuk di blog gw ini. Cukup gw terima aja yang terjadi, semoga gw bisa dengan mudah mengabaikannya.

Keinginan gw yang paling tinggi adalah, “gw pengen jadi mimpi indah di saat gw bangun dari tidur gw, dan mimpi indah di setiap tidur orang yang gw sayang”. Kalo ada orang yang bisa ngertiin kata-kata itu, berarti dia bisa ngertiin gw.

Gw paling gak bisa ngelawan sikap atau sifat gw sendiri, kadang gw sendiri sadar tentang keburuan yang ada, tapi tetep aja gw gak bisa nentang sifat tersebut. Kadang sempet gw pengen berubah atau berusaha tuk jadi pribadi lain, tapi tetep gak bisa, dan inilah gw. Sifat yang ada pada gw adalah jiwa sesungguhnya dari diri gw. Jadi gw gak bakal pernah ngerubahnya.

Mungkin gw orangnya gak begitu cocok buat jadi seorang pemimpin, gw lebih suka ngabisin waktu bareng bintang-bintang, rasanya indah banget!! Gw gak begitu ingin di segani, gw pengen orang memandang gw sewajarnya tapi juga menghormati dan menghargai yang ada pada gw. Gw bakal benci banget sama orang yang gak bisa ngormatin orang lain dan merasa diri dia yang paling hebat, udah ada contohnya, dan dia yang tadinya sodara gw, tapi sekarang Nothing bagi gw. Tapi gw bakalan sayang dan perduli banget sama orang yang mau perduli sama gw, walaupun mungkin tadinya dia bukan siapa-siapa, salah satuya klik di sini.

Gw sebenernya gak suka basa-basi, tapi kalo sama orang yang bener-bener udah akrab sama gw baru gw banyak omong, yah, cuman sekedar pengen gokil-gokilan bareng aja sih. Gw juga aga males, sering punya banyak target, tapi ternyata yang bisa gw raih cuman dikit, kalah sama rasa males gw, mungkin gw cuman kurang focus doank, jadi sekarang ini gw lagi berusaha tuk bisa lebih focus sama target yang pengen ga capai.

Semakin tua gw semakin ngerti masalah hidup, banyak pengalaman yang udah gw dapet, berbagai tipe orang yang udah gw temuin dan jadi temen gw. Gw makin ngerti sama perbedaan dari setiap sikap orang lain. Dan gw belajar tuk bisa ngormatin perbedaan yang ada. Gw bersyukur ketika gw bisa menghormati mereka yang juga menghormati gw. Namun, semakin gw ngerti masalah hidup, gw ngerasa hidup ini sedikit membosankan, waktu berlalu begitu aja, yang indah terasa cepat berlalu dan yang buruk terasa lama. Kenapa begitu??

Udah ah, gw bingung mau ngomongin apa mengenai kepribadian gw.

Some about Shade

“entah bagaimana sebenarnya arti hidup ini
entah jalan apa yang sebenarnya harus ku lalui
entah bagaimana kedepannya aku ini
yang pasti ku mencoba tuk berarti

di saat aku lahir
memang benar aku menangis
sekencang yang ku bisa
namun mereka disekitar ku tersenyum
menyambut kelahiran ku

dan aku ingin
di saat aku mati nanti
aku bisa tersenyum
dan mereka di sekitarku menangis
dalam arti hidupku memang berarti untuk mereka!”

I'm Shade was born in Dharma Poetra, East Lampung, a small village in Indonesia. It’s a real village, there’s no supermarket, no taxi, no big building, no bar, and the street, it’s still a natural street, you cant go to my village by car if it’s raining. There are just cultures’s house, fields, birds and beautiful lifes of villagers. And I spent my childhood there until I was 11 years old.

I have great parents, one older brother, four older sisters and one younger sister. My parents realy love us more than everything, and they want all of us will be better than them, they just wish that their children can finish their study at least in University.

So, When I'm 12 Years Old, For my junior high school, my father took me into the city (Teluk Betung), to get better knowledge for my study, 'cause in my village, the education isn't so good! So I must leave my family and live in a city alone. I was the best graduate in my Junior High School.

And when I'm 15 years old, I'd stayed in City (Bandar Lampung) to continue in senior high school, eventhough I'm not the best one in my class, but I'm not the bad one... hehe :)

Now(Des 2009), I'm 19 years old, I continue my study in Gadjah Mada University, in Jogjakarta, one of the best University In Indonesia!

My family, I realy love them !!! They’re my spirit, my Motivation and my Inspiration!

All my friend said tht I'm a freak men! But, I think, be a freak men is a way that can make me happy and make all my friend happy too.. (not crazy, like me! hehe')

I know it's so dificult, but in my life, there's no imposible! my family are the most importhan people who I wanna make always happy! it just 'bout time, I can wait no longer....

I hope that the God will always give me the best thing that can make me getting My dream...

thanx!